I am searching for a new way of thinking this year. I have to! It’s the only thing that I can do to survive. My life is filled with so much abundance and there are so many times when I am blinded by this. It’s not that I am not aware of my constant abundance; it’s that I get scared! I get scared of not having enough when everything that I need is right there in front of me.

I grew up well off. I attended boarding school in New Hampshire, went to college in Tucson, lived in America’s finest yuppy town a.k.a Boulder, lived in the luscious mountains known as the Berkshires and now live in America’s Southern Banking town a.k.a Charlotte. So there you go; I just saw all the abundance that I am surrounded by after writing all that down. See, writing is a release. Same with painting or drawing. I got it all..creativity, abundance, spirituality and family. Well then why the heck am I scared of not having enough?

That’s where my new way of thinking is coming in. I am re-programming my mind to think about what I have differently. For example, back in November when I posted everyday  on Facebook up until thanksgiving about something I was grateful for; showed positive results in the month of december. There was a week in december where I had so much come to me and all I wanted to do was give, give, give…I received free groceries, I received a huge package of free yoga supplies and got an internship all within 5 days of each other! Now that’s pretty damn impressive. I believe it was because I was grateful for all that I have…So that’s where my new way of thinking is coming in.

Today’s result; I went to the grocery to buy fruits and veggies and decided to add diapers to the list. I wanted to buy these diapers for a friend who is pregnant and in need of baby supplies. As I was standing in line buying; I met two little girls who were with their mom. I loved chatting and kid flirting..Before you know it, the littlest one said “Hey! can I get a hug?” I bet she was 3 1/2 yrs old! I believe she sensed my kindness and in return I got a big hug….I left and I said “Ciao bella!”