There is something happening. Something is happening inside of me. Something is shifting.

There is something happening. Something is happening inside of me. Something is shifting. It’s been loud and clear and the sound of my own voice is pounding and shouting through my brain.

Something is shifting so subtly. My inner critic has been going at it with me all week. She’s been screaming and shouting at me,

You aren’t good enough!

What!? I am not good enough?

Normally I would hold onto this notion about myself, but something is telling me this time ‘don’t believe that bitch! she’s always been there trying to jeopardize your success.’

That I believe. Shit, for a long time, I blamed her for everything that failed in my life. Relationships, jobs, goals that weren’t met, OH! you name it I blamed her!

She’s been so loud this week. Sometimes when I look in the mirror, there she stands with a broomstick looking at me laughing at how pathetic I am.

critic

I am so done with her.

There is something happening. Something is happening inside of me. Something is shifting. It’s been loud and clear and the sound of my own voice is pounding and shouting through my brain.

But….this time she is supporting me. YES! Jumping up and down!

For the past 24 hours, she has been sorta nice to me. She spoke to me in meditation and told me a secret.

She said,

“Stop criticizing yourself. You are good enough. Your only problem is that you are setting to high of expectations for yourself. Please stop doing that. I promise you that when you stop setting such high expectations of yourself that everything will open up. Your life will unfold and things will happen.”

and so I continued to breathe deeper and deeper.

Those words comforted me like a mothers arms wrapped around her new-born baby. I felt so much lighter. Wow! I am beginning to make friends with my inner critic.

It’s what I choose to believe. It’s who I choose to be.

So here I sit. Relaxed. Mind is softer and the inner voice is like a beautiful chant repeating a long sacred prayer.

Something has shifted. I love my inner voice.

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