Fall is here and as the leaves begin to fall, I am reminded of what it is that I am shedding.
After almost a year of feeling that I’ve been on my own personal inner quest, I am reminded of the things that make me happy. I am reminded of the simple pleasures that I wake up to everyday. It’s not the neighborhood that I live in or the car that I drive, it’s that I awake everyday with the attitude to do better than I did the day before. It’s also the meditation I do, the hot tea I drink, Pandora radio, journaling and moving my body that keep me smiling in the morning. It’s the sweet text messages my boyfriend sends me, the messages my Mother sends and the positive updates that I read on Facebook. I sometimes wonder what the hell brought me to Charlotte after living in places like Boulder. Then I am reminded by something that I feel or see that I am here on purpose.
Most of the time it doesn’t bother me that my social circle isn’t as big as it was in my teens and twenties. What matters is that I am surrounded by authentic, like-minded souls. It’s more important for me to love and be loved than to be popular and well known.
Sometimes people who I think I have a good rapport with delete me on Facebook. At first it shoots through me like a painful wound. Then as I move through the realization, I realize that it’s OK. They just aren’t in alignment with my truth and my purpose. When I realize this, then I know that I am living from my authentic self.
After walking into a furniture store today and oozing all over the beautiful furniture, I realized I don’t need it. Although I can buy it, I don’t need it. I have what I need. Actually, I have more than what I need, so therefore I know that I have a lot to give. Not just on a material level, but a spiritual level.
After I walked away from the beautiful furniture store and into a yummy place to eat, I realized, when I eat healthy, I feel healthy. When I feel healthy, I think healthy. When all of this aligns, I am living in my truth. As soon as I realized this, my intuition reminded me of this quote, ‘Happy people don’t have the best of everything, they make the best of everything….’
And so there it is. I am once again realizing that I am enough. I am that I am.